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Why is it that I can’t believe my friends?
That I can’t accept their kindness; their praise,
I can’t help but feel pain and sorrowed anguish,
And yet I can’t deal with their nice words.
I feel like I am but a shell of myself, and yet I am who I am meant to be,
I am struggling, choking on the very water that spurns my life,
And yet,
I breathe deeply the words in which I write, the fractals I create,
They are me.
Why then, do I accept that- the soul through which I create,
And not that it is good, and worthy of happiness and joy?
Am I too afraid of greatness? Or am I afraid that I will wake up,
And all the love they feel will disappear.
Like his.
Maybe I just want to scream to the rooftops that it was not ok.
Never ok.
I didn’t deserve that pain, that abuse.
I DID NOT DESERVE IT.
And I believe that.
And yet I can’t.
In the deep canyon, a cauldron of chopped up feelings and pain,
Filled with blood, bitterness and discontent,
I find myself flailing, crying, screaming and fighting.
Help.
That I can’t accept their kindness; their praise,
I can’t help but feel pain and sorrowed anguish,
And yet I can’t deal with their nice words.
I feel like I am but a shell of myself, and yet I am who I am meant to be,
I am struggling, choking on the very water that spurns my life,
And yet,
I breathe deeply the words in which I write, the fractals I create,
They are me.
Why then, do I accept that- the soul through which I create,
And not that it is good, and worthy of happiness and joy?
Am I too afraid of greatness? Or am I afraid that I will wake up,
And all the love they feel will disappear.
Like his.
Maybe I just want to scream to the rooftops that it was not ok.
Never ok.
I didn’t deserve that pain, that abuse.
I DID NOT DESERVE IT.
And I believe that.
And yet I can’t.
In the deep canyon, a cauldron of chopped up feelings and pain,
Filled with blood, bitterness and discontent,
I find myself flailing, crying, screaming and fighting.
Help.
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This is how I feel. Ok? Perfect Kiwi was never Perfect, nor will I ever be. I am Sam.
And Sam is hurting. There you go.
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And Sam is hurting. There you go.
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Sorry i ment good poem.