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C-PTSD

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With a sword in my hand, I will battle,
I will rise and destroy every foe,
No matter the obstacles present,
My courage is all I will know.

But what if the enemy’s hidden?
Shrouded in secrets and pain,
In the veils of my earliest memories,
With the corpse of my innocence slain.

I believed I was free from the damage,
There was nothing left there to see,
But a fracture of psyche revealed
The depravities living in me.

A crack in the glass shifts my spirit,
My steps start to falter and cease,
Slurring I reach for survival,
In the face of the hideous beast.

What was stored has amassed and developed,
It has morphed into something unique,
With words of cutting derision,
I lie senseless as anarchy speaks.

I believed I was free from the damage,
I believed there was nothing to see,
Yet that fracture of psyche revealed
The depravities living in me.

The light shall begin a new morrow,
The journey has only begun,
Though with love on my side, I can triumph,
I have faced it before, and I’ve won,

With a sword in my hand, I will battle,
I will rise and destroy every foe,
No matter the obstacles present,
As my courage is all that I know.
It's nowhere near my greatest work but it needed to be written. It's been hard for me to write lately. There's been a lot going on. I am working through some big stuff and it's going to be a bumpy ride but I am old hat at this, right?

Yep.

Don't criticise this too much. I know it sucks.
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I'm in awe. Your poem sums up my own experience with C-PTSD over the years, from being in denial about the trauma (or at least trying to be) in my child and teenage years, to finally, painfully, confronting it as a young adult. And with that, at the end--hope.
I didn't realize how much I needed this. Thank you. I'll be sure to check out your other works! Heart