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Journal Entry: Sat Apr 18, 2015, 11:06 PM
The past few months, I have been working through a plague in my system. It starts with pain and paralysis, numbness and weakness. It continues on with horrific memories and the emotional torture associated. I deal with fear, guilt, regret, rejection, betrayal, heart-ache, fury and despair. I remember what was and how it has developed into what is. I see where my mind and spirit have been compromised and I fight through so I can have a better life.

And through all of this, through the struggles financially and the struggles now physically and emotionally, I feel lacking. I haven't done enough or been good enough.

And it makes me wonder what 'enough' is. What could I have been or done to have been led down a different path, and what would that path have taught me?

I have responsibilities to teach others and I have a responsibility to myself to not let the past live on as my disability.

I have choices, but in this moment, I hurt.

I hurt so much.

So. Fucking. Much.

I less than three you

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 4, 2015, 11:09 PM
<3 you guys.

For Izzy by kiwi-damnation
For Izzy
I made this for a lovely girl by the name of Isabella.
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In a war-torn shell
Exists a special hell
Where one flayed spirit resides.
Her shattered soul stands,
She shall not be damned!
She is wisdom, teacher – guide.
Guide
A flashlit prompted by espossess "Quality over quantity". This is a Symbi form. The italic lines are a poem separate from the whole piece.
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Loss

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 18, 2015, 11:06 PM
The past few months, I have been working through a plague in my system. It starts with pain and paralysis, numbness and weakness. It continues on with horrific memories and the emotional torture associated. I deal with fear, guilt, regret, rejection, betrayal, heart-ache, fury and despair. I remember what was and how it has developed into what is. I see where my mind and spirit have been compromised and I fight through so I can have a better life.

And through all of this, through the struggles financially and the struggles now physically and emotionally, I feel lacking. I haven't done enough or been good enough.

And it makes me wonder what 'enough' is. What could I have been or done to have been led down a different path, and what would that path have taught me?

I have responsibilities to teach others and I have a responsibility to myself to not let the past live on as my disability.

I have choices, but in this moment, I hurt.

I hurt so much.

So. Fucking. Much.

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Poetry
Self-Condemn Visual Poetry by kiwi-damnation
Give me a topic and a fixed form that you would like and I will create something specially for you.
Fractals
I Love and Adore You by kiwi-damnation
Wheel of Fortune by kiwi-damnation
Love in Chrysalis by kiwi-damnation
Cockleshells by kiwi-damnation
Give me your favourite colours or a shape or an idea you would like and I will do my best to create it for you.

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Sammy
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Hey guys! I'm Sam a.k.a kiwi-damnation.

I am a massage therapist by day and artist by night. I love to create in many different ways and especially enjoy the incredible world of fixed form poetry. I run a group ProjectDFC devoted to preserving the art of fixed form poetry and bringing you all along for the ride.

Seriously though, I love dA and all it represents and I look forward to reading/gazing upon all of your art. You all amaze me. Thank you for the privilege of sharing this journey with you.

Aaaaand you can find my photography on kiwi-damnation-stock

Adios amigos!
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Parsat Featured By Owner 3 days ago   Writer
Thanks for the sub, and for all you do with ProjectDFC. :) Looking forward to May Mixup Madness, AAA always got the better of me. Could never really get used to those alphabetic forms...
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner 3 days ago   Writer
You're welcome mate. You should try more then. Tackle what challenges you.
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murasakiriyu Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, thank you for the :+fav: :)
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015   Writer
No worries :)
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KatherineJohnston Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015  New member Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the favorite!
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015   Writer
You're welcome :)
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Goodbye-to-you Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Student General Artist
Thank you for the watch (in return). I think your fractal work is quite brilliant and I find it inspiring to make my own.
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015   Writer
:) Thanks so much.  I used weavesilk and Apophysis. :huggle:
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classic-poet Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: Thanks for the favourite, Sam! (Though I don't think I deserve it...) :heart:
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015   Writer
You do :heart:
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classic-poet Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You flatter me. :aww:
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Dorkmaestro Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
I love you :heart:
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015   Writer
I love you too :heart:
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tanafeyroyale Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fave
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kiwi-damnation Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2014   Writer
You're very welcome.
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